My topic is mostly healing and therapy. I’m 50 years old and have been in therapy with Ron for over a year now. I have PTSD, and possibly DDNOS, which means my personality is to some degree in pieces, which I call parts. The parts don’t have names, but are referred to by their ages. They are all child parts.
I live in a large North-American city and work as a tech writer.
My T’s name is not really Ron, my name is not really Ellen. Details about other people may be smudged for privacy and names are all changed. Everything else though is true. The therapy sessions I describe are not recorded – they are reconstructions. That does mean that I leave things out, usually because I’ve forgotten, and sometimes I invent bits of dialogue because I can’t remember the actual words we used.
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I am in psychodynamic therapy. I landed in this by accident and had no real idea what was involved. I was simply looking for help with PTSD symptoms, liked what I read on Ron’s website, and made an appointment. I liked Ron, so I kept going.
Slowly it dawned on me that this therapy was different from others I’d attempted.
Psychodynamic therapy has it’s roots in Freud’s theories of the unconscious and of the importance of the relationship between client and therapist. The theories have changed a lot since Freud’s day, but these basics, that unconscious factors influence our current life, that our family of origin relationships formed our personalities, and that the relationship between client and therapist is a part of the therapy remain.
So I may be going on about how Ron feels about me and how I feel about him – those are legitimate concerns in this type of therapy, though they may seem very off the point to those in other types of therapy.
The other aspect of Ron’s therapy is the importance of allowing buried feelings to emerge. When I access a feeling from my past, however painful and horrendous, the theory is to welcome that feeling if possible and allow it expression. This therapy would not talk me out of feelings that I have, and going through periods of grief and anger is seen as healing and not something to be stopped or fixed.