Today first thing I emailed my notice to my manager and big boss. I was so anxious doing this, but going on in this work situation seemed worse. I got no response whatsoever from either one. What a contrast to when I quit a few months ago, when both were falling all over themselves to talk to me and persuade me to stay.
So now I have two weeks to go. J is back to giving me the silent treatment. So I guess I’ll be this invisible person for two weeks which is going to be hard on me. But the main thing is, I’m taking care of myself by letting this job go.
I do wonder how come they thought I was great at my job in the first few months, and now I’m beyond terrible. What changed? I know one thing for sure – my skills stayed the same. My subject matter knowledge actually increased though. I don’t think I’ll ever know. I asked J to show me what she meant when she said the formatting was so very bad, but of course she hasn’t done so. Formatting can slip on it’s own in Word, when documents are passed around. Who knows what she’s talking about.
I now feel somewhat sorry for J. Yes, she’s a horrible boss. But I know she doesn’t have any communications skills, and doesn’t seem to know she doesn’t. I think this makes her life hugely difficult, especially at work. She constantly complains about how over-worked she is, but I think without being able to talk to people and negotiate, you are kind of at the mercy of the winds that blow.
I can’t believe she thought it was fine to tell me so many negative things about myself in the space of fifteen minutes, just because she happened to be feeling angry. I’d think, if you have an employee with performance issues, you’d carefully set up a meeting to discuss, thinking about it first, and come up with some kind of plan to improve. This was just one big vent, her throwing up on me to make her feel better.
Well, I feel calmer. I feel like I’ve taken care of a situation in a grown-up manner, and my life will get a bit better soon. Some environments aren’t meant for some kinds of people – it’s best to get out.