Feeling the need to do a gratefulness post. I actually feel fairly positive at the moment, though it seems my last post was maybe giving the impression I’m not doing well. I’m doing OK.
This year, I am very grateful for my blog readers – commenters, passers-by, new readers, longer term readers. I’ve come to feel like I know you, and your support means a lot. Thank you.
Last year for me was free from traumas. There was one major problem which I would have wished to have avoided (involving a certain bad boss 😉 ). But other than that, my life improved quite a bit. No real worries about my health last year. Cancer problems seem to be in the past, as all check ups are OK. And I got a handle on my gut issues, keeping them down to a very dull roar. The diet/supplement regimen is working well, so all I have to do is keep on keepin’ on. It is wonderful not to feel sick anymore.
Therapy was so much better now I’m no longer dealing with group. I am making progress. I’ve got a better handle on parts and am working better with different parts of myself than I ever did before. I’m grateful for Ron and also for the extra support he provides by email when needed. I feel lucky I found him.
I’m grateful that I have enough saved that being without work for a few months is no biggie. That means I can use this time to rest and recuperate. It can be rough to keep working through some of the stuff that comes up for me, but it’s worth it. Having a pause now is like a little reward for the efforts I’ve made to be and stay employed despite everything.
I have made tentative outreaches in spirituality, attending a church nearby and slowly getting to know some of the people there. I’m finding this somewhat helpful, and trust I can deepen this.
I have new boots that I like!
I’m able to go more places just because I feel like it, and feel I have the right to be there. If I’m alone, that’s OK. Lots of people are.
Areas for improvement are that I need to people my life. Even though, in a way, I’m glad I don’t have to deal with a big relationship while I’m re-organizing myself internally. I want different kinds of relationships than I’ve had in the past. Not perfect, but ones where I feel a connection. I am no longer willing to hang out with anyone who will accept me. I have to like them. This area is so tricky and difficult for me. And I have a lot of fear around it – I keep making plans to go to some group or event, then I end up not following through. So, I want to focus on this area if I am able to.
I’m also planning on taking a continuing ed course related to my professional life. Some are only a few weeks long, and I want to make the effort of taking one of these. Something of interest, but also that I can list on a resume. That might be a tough order, but I can investigate.
I wish you all a hopeful new year!