I seem to be allergic to dairy, all of a sudden. I’ve cut out all milk products and am having a lot less nausea. Even lactose free milk isn’t good for me. Sigh. I depend on dairy quite a bit and am not sure what to eat now. I don’t want to eat meat all the time.
Also chocolate. I had quite the chocolate habit. Today, to test this, I tried two squares of mint chocolate (yum) and feel worse again.
And coffee. I still have to test coffee without dairy though, so I’m holding out some hope.
I still have something wrong, but it’s a lot less severe than it was.
I am so used to taking my physical health for granted. Now things are going wrong, and it’s a shock.
I gave up wheat a few years ago, which really helped ease some physical symptoms of depression I had (like fatigue and fog brain). So what the heck is left for me to eat?? I’m not always an energetic cook either, not given to whipping up macrobiotic feasts every day, though I will cook sometimes.
Emotionally I’m lethargic and fatigued at the moment. Getting to the end of the day at work yesterday was extremely tough. By the time I got home, I just lay in a kind of a stupor for over an hour.
I’m still assimilating my therapy experience with the part coming out and crying about missing her family. It was almost like a time traveler – a child waking up, forty years have passed, but she doesn’t know that, and can’t understand how everything has changed.
Everything is difficult, daily life is hard. I’m lonely today, but don’t think I have the energy to go out. Just living day to day, not really touching anyone at all.
Today I am grateful for being able to work from home many days. Without that, trying to survive the 9-5, the world becomes unimaginably difficult for me. With it, I can recover from bad days and try again.