Sorry for the long break. I’m in a struggle with depression, as is mostly the case this time of year. I guess this year, I have the triple whammy of just having moved, so my life is quite upside down, working contract full time, where any day off means I lose a day’s pay, and the usual emotional stress of Christmas that I have every year.
Weighed against that however is the fact that I am solvent with no immediate money worries whatsoever. Phew, that’s a big one! So if I need to go for a cheering meal out, or a coffee and chocolate pecan butter tart, that’s always possible. It’s amazing how much more cheerful my outlook is after a decent meal, maybe washed down with some dense Christmas porter…
There’s a way of enjoying the season, the hustle and bustle, the lights….sometimes I do manage. Like this afternoon, where after buying one of only three presents I need to take care of, I ducked into a cafe for a tea. I’d bought myself a book – Dickens’ A Christmas Carol, with shorter stories also included. After a while, I settled down enough to slowly savour two of the stories, while sometimes pausing to listen in on shoppers at other tables, and doing some people watching. Just feeling that I was here in a big city, part of the hustle and bustle, just appreciating and enjoying.
I’ve also taken a few extra days off, starting today until next Thursday. Having to work non-stop just made me exhausted, so I stopped. Luckily there is no deadline at work, so I can book off whatever time suits me.
It’s easy to feel lonely and forgotten sometimes, but really, I don’t want huge family events. The two dinners I will attend will be plenty, thank you very much. Tomorrow I go to my parent’s for a big turkey dinner. On Christmas I have luckily been invited by a friend for dinner.
I think the secret to some happiness is going to lie in finding small moments of peace and happiness. I wish that for every person who reads my blog. And special kind wishes go to my insightful commenters – those little comments mean a lot to me. May we all find bits of peace and harmony over the holidays.
Photo: Vincent W. Hevern