Tomorrow I have therapy. This therapy is a lot gentler than the one I tried in the fall. This therapist does not encourage any memories or flashback type experiences. She says maybe ‘in two hundred years’ we’ll get to looking at some of these things. I’m not sure I have two hundred years, but it’s nice to know I won’t go for therapy, pay my money, and feel like crap afterwards. I feel like crap enough outside of therapy as it is.
But then the question arises – so what are we doing here? Which of course I put to her. So first on the agenda is safety and skills. Ms T used to be a massage therapist, and now is a big believer in energy modalities, which are Emotional Freedom Technique (tapping) and something else whose name I can’t remember.
She says these techniques are based on accupunture points and have been used for hundreds of years. OK, leeches were used to ‘purify the blood’ for hundreds of years also, and that turned out not to be so great.
However, I’ll try this stuff. We did a technique using head pressure and three points on my forehead, and I did feel some relief after trying it.
But I was supposed to buy a book about EFT, which I didn’t get to yet. Then I was going to practice the forehead technique, and haven’t done that yet either. I’d say there’s quite a bit of resistance to this approach. It seems kind of crazy actually.
She is good as a sounding board I guess, as I have no one to tell about the symptoms I have, so it makes me feel less crazy. But there’s not a lot of digging around in my past – she really wants to get to these techniques, and most of the time I feel too stressed out, by the time I get to her office at the end of a long day, to pay attention and learn anything new.
She is quite accepting, which is a good quality. She does not know much about social anxiety, but then, I didn’t pick her for that. However, that’s what I suffer from every day at work. It would be nice if she knew what to do about it. She just feels if I am overall in a better mood, putting out better energy, people will start to like me. But that will be a long process unfortunately.
Well, I got more sleep last night, and while I’m still really tired from the night before, I’m hoping tonight I will sleep OK, just waking up once, and will have a more rested approach to the work day.