I’m going to experiment with writing just a tiny post since it’s a work day. Too bad I can’t post from work, but that’s a complete no no. Unless I had a phone with internet, which I don’t. Just a low-tech basic cell with no features.
I’m focusing on staying alert through the work day, unlike in the past, and then calming down enough to actually get a decent night’s sleep. It’s difficult for me to calm down in fact. I so easily go into this blank non-feeling state when stressed.
I’m reading a very interesting book about Ayurveda and depression. Ayurveda is an ancient Indian holistic healing method. For depression, they divide it up into three different kinds – airy (anxious), burning (angry/anxious) and earthy (deeply sad and sluggish). The treatment for each kind is different. I really respect that they divide up depression, because it always seems to me that people’s experience of depression is quite different. Only I can’t quite decide which one I am. Not that I’m massively depressed or anything, but I do suffer from that to some extent.
The thing I am implementing from the book so far is the yogic breathing for anxiety. There are various breathing methods, and I like the ‘three-part breathing’ and the ‘victory breath’. And I’m just too tired to explain them, but they are helping me.
The other thing I’m experimenting with is slowing down at meals. I tend to read or do other things while eating. Ayurveda says appreciating food, really tasting and enjoying it, helps you actually digest it by getting your digestive juices flowing properly. Your body can’t use all those good nutrients if it’s not digesting well. So I’m doing that as well.
You’re also supposed to sip warm water with spices – I do the warm water part. Still need to acquire the spices.
And tonight I just finished watching a BBC series I got from the library called Sensitive Skin. A lovely series. Half-hour episodes, so watching two after work just suits. It’s about an older woman (fifties) trying to rebuild her life, and just has that British sense of style. Also humorous and off-beat. Wow. British TV is better than ours I’d say.