Flu flu flu. Tired tired tired. I continue to be exhausted. This flu is not getting any better at all. If it is a flu and not something more serious. You start to wonder, after weeks and weeks of this weakness and aches. I’m spending a lot of time resting. I do go out for a walk every day. Today I went on my usual route, and felt like I barely made it back. There’s a slight uphill incline on the road back, and it just seemed to difficult. Usually, I don’t even notice that.
A few days ago, I finally went for acupuncture, as my friend had a similar flu, and said acupuncture helped her a lot. So far it’s done nothing, except that my feet are warmer! I got into bed one night and noticed my feet were absolutely toasty, which is unusual. Probably the treatment boosted my circulation. My friend had three treatments, so maybe just one doesn’t do anything. Who knows. I may go again next week, though cost is a concern. I’ve quite therapy temporarily to balance out the cost of the treatments.
I’m also off to the doctor Monday. Really, I’m starting to wonder what on earth is wrong. I’m also having a kind of mild pain going down the side of my leg, with my foot aching. Is it related? Who the heck knows.
I have promised some friends to cook a Christmas dinner, and am wondering if I can do it with this fluey feeling. I know a number of people who are alone in the city and will have nowhere to go for xmas unless I host. I would like to do it if I possibly can.
So far I have not made any xmas preparations. I need to get and decorate a tree, clean, and buy a few things for my son. I do have all of next week to do this, if only I could quickly get well.
And my therapist thinks I should not be stopping therapy, as the work we are doing builds momentum, and interrupting is harmful. But besides the money issue, I feel I cannot open anything emotional up before Christmas. Now is the time for denial and coping, if ever. I can cry after the holiday it seems to me.
And it is my mother’s birthday today, and I am supposed to meet the family in a restaurant. I think I will beg off sick, but go over for cake afterward.